Expansive Time and A Stronger Foundation

This year is off to a galloping start and I understand that we're on the other side of compressed time or what I call expanding time. Very cool. I get the compressed idea as I've been constantly running out of it on a regular basis, but I've been looking forward to relaxing into the circular and ever-expanding aspects of time.

Be careful what you ask for! I've actually had a good taste of it lately. My feet and leg issues demanded me to drop from full to part-time albeit reluctantly.The back and forth of can I really make it on part-time income vs being partial to eat  was the big question. My feet and legs made this internal dialogue non-negotiable. I was taking pain meds just to get through the day and it became quite clear that I had to take the chance and trust that I could fill the void with positive endeavors and added income. Time to practice my new mantra - fearless, right? Rrrriiiiigggghhhhhttttt...

My new schedule quickly crashed from 40 hours a week to 14 and I found myself with 8 days off in a row (I'm in retail) so I planned on doing a million things...cleaning and sorting, selling a few things on ebay and also squeezing in a trip to the beach to visit an old friend. I was packed and ready for my road trip when I was climbing the  stairs and blew out my knee. I spent the rest of the day in the ER wondering WTF is THIS all about? I immediately found out what expansive time was first hand as the clock never seemed to move and one minute dragged into the other. Nothing broken, no reason other than what they called "thresh hold pain" which is nothing more than months of walking differently to compensate for my foot pain putting undue strain on my knees. It was finished with all that. It had been bugging me and sending sharp signals for over a week, but I could always work it out then use it. No more. Flat on my back, foot elevated, staring at the ceiling and dreaming of the beach. Sigh. Time expanded but I'm happy to say that my knee feels better and I can put pressure on my leg again. My calf is sore now, but at least I'm mobile, but still taking things very easy.

So back to work tomorrow and all those things I'd planned on taking care of are still staring at me and I've made peace with that. I have had time to read, get my TV fix of Pawn Stars and American Pickers marathons and today I plan on cleaning out a few computer files and transcribing my past-life reading as I know that will uncover a few more issues that may need to be addressed. Now that I'm part-time, I'm sure I'll have other windows of time to visit the beach and in better weather and health.

So here's to expansive time, the new energy and a stronger foundation for my path ahead. Hopefully my experiences will be a bit less dramatic going forward.

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